Blue Bunny

​It just sits there now, gathering dust among all the other trinkets on my shelf. The tiny sky blue bunny was first given to me in Arizona, then it laid on my bed back home before finding its final place on my wooden shelves. It should’ve gone into the bin with all the other stuffed animals, but I couldn’t bring myself to put it away. Not because it was given to me by my family I don't see often. Not because it’s my favorite, because really it’s not. It’s cute and soft, and matches my room too, but the reason I keep it isn’t a happy, sunny reason. It’s a reminder of the night he came home for a split second.

 

The days before were tough and I honestly can’t remember them much. My mind wasn’t working properly, everything was jumbled up and warped, I felt like I was always under water as everything moved in slow motion. Nothing made sense, and it still didn’t make sense when he came home and no words were spoken between him and her. He came up to my room and it was the only time I’ve seen him cry. I didn’t know what to believe, a part of me still doesn’t, but we both comforted each other anyways. It felt wrong not too. He looked on my bed and picked up that blue bunny before asking if it could go with him. I said yes, I could never say no to him. He was my buddy, my partner in crime, my first hero.

 

I think I screamed and begged for him to stay, but I honestly don't remember if the words reached my lips or stayed in my mind as I watched him walk out of my suddenly small and empty room. The days after were just as muddled and empty as before; nothing made sense and nothing felt right. The very thing I was told to always be sure of was broken. It took a little under a week for him to return with that little blue bunny in his hands, it took more than a week to fix the shattered mess that was left. Now that bunny sits on my shelf staring at me, and I can’t help but love it, even after all it reminds me of. I love it because it reminds me of him and it reminds me of how we all came out of the bad and ended up okay.